Sometimes, though, one is wounded for love. The purplish bruise of a neck hickey. The resurfaced stigmata of some forgotten passion play. The gnarled and callused hands of an aged parent.The faded tattoo of a lost child's name. The embodied heart too bears its own wounds, only in secret..
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"The human race tends to remember the abuses to which it has been subjected rather than the endearments. What’s left of kisses? Wounds, however, leave scars."---Bertolt Brecht
"Memory, if one allows it a touch of theatrical indulgence, is a slightly malicious tailor who keeps only the garments that itch. It politely misplaces the silk and insists on preserving the wool that scratches the skin of thought. One begins to suspect it of aesthetic bad manners.
A kiss is a brief conspiracy between two surfaces of the world. It happens with the discreet audacity of a footnote that forgets to refer to anything. It leaves behind no object, no residue worthy of inspection, only a faint grammatical tremor in the air of the day…
A wound behaves like a clerk who refuses to leave the office. It sits at the desk of the body with infuriating punctuality, stamping every hour with the same ink. It does not require remembrance. It performs continuity as a profession. Even when ignored, it continues its bureaucratic monologue in silence.
Kisses are poor witnesses. They refuse to testify. They prefer evaporation to evidence. One might almost accuse them of aristocratic indifference to documentation.
Wounds are vulgar archivists. They insist on filing themselves in triplicate. They enjoy their own legibility. They are the kind of presence that clears its throat before entering the room.
And yet the scandal lies elsewhere. The delicate things never disappear. They simply change their address. They take up residence in the margins of behavior. In the way a hand pauses for a fraction too long near a doorknob. In the unnecessary softness of a word chosen when a sharper one was available. In that faint hesitation of posture that resembles nothing so much as a private joke the body refuses to explain.
Meanwhile, pain continues its bureaucratic career, filing itself neatly under “available evidence.”
So the question, rather impertinent in its simplicity, remains:
What does the mind keep in its most reliable drawer, the quiet insolence of what vanished without permission, or the persistent paperwork of what refused to leave?"
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