I realized last night in bed that I am one disassociating juggernaut. Starting around puberty I was never comfortable with my body. My head was too big and my arms too thin. I was not like other kids going out for sports or having girlfriends or socializing or experimenting with drugs and alcohol. I became obsessed with the prophecies of Revelation and spent whole days in the summer time studying them as well as other books on their interpretation. I see this now as the pattern that dominated my life. Of escaping into some entirely mental alternate reality where I could be free of the drudgery of physical existence. Soon philosophy took over my life, affording instantaneous access to a realm of abstract thought and ideas that served as my escape hatch from everyday reality. I wondered how one reverses this tendency. How does one "re-associate" and become present in our bodies again. Here are some tips are doing just that:
"Before anything else, it’s important to say this clearly:
If embodiment feels foreign, scary, or uncomfortable, there’s a good reason for that.
You might have learned early on that your body wasn’t a safe place to be. Maybe you had to shut down your emotional or physical responses to survive in your family system. Maybe you grew up in a body that was criticized, controlled, or ignored. Or maybe you’ve just spent years operating in high-functioning survival mode, where slowing down wasn’t an option.
In any case, disconnection from your body is not a failure…it’s a strategy. One that makes perfect sense in context.
So… What Does It Mean to Be In Your Body?
“Being in your body” is often shorthand for something more complex:
Feeling present, attuned, and connected to your internal experience, not just your thoughts, but your sensations, emotions, and impulses.
It doesn’t mean being perfectly calm, emotionally enlightened, or able to name every muscle group that’s firing.
It means things like:
Noticing the tightness in your chest when someone interrupts you
Feeling your stomach drop before a difficult conversation
Realizing you’re hungry before you’re dizzy and snapping at your partner
Recognizing a gut “yes” or “no” before your mind talks you out of it
It’s less about perfect awareness and more about softening the gap between your mind and the rest of you..."