“We are only chance visitants to this jungle of blind mutations. The natural world existed when we did not, and it will continue to exist long after we are gone. The supernatural crept into life only when the door of consciousness was opened in our heads. The moment we stepped through that door, we walked out on nature. Say what we will about it and deny it till we die--we are blighted by our knowing what is too much to know and too secret to tell one another if we are to stride along our streets, work at our jobs, and sleep in our beds. It is the knowledge of a race of beings that is only passing through this shoddy cosmos.”― Thomas Ligotti, The Conspiracy Against the Human Race
Laughing and crying must be closely related--hand in hand like a brother and a sister. Two uncontrollable spasms of the lungs expunging bestial vocalizations of feelings no words can even remotely articulate. I've noticed the older I get the more I both laugh and cry. I am regressing into some more primitive being, haunted as I am by fireside tales of my upcoming migration.
It's never just a question of what you know. It's where are you standing such that you came to know this? And how can I get there myself? I call this our "epistance."
“But to tear down a factory or to revolt against a government or to avoid repair of a motorcycle because it is a system is to attack effects rather than causes; and as long as the attack is upon effects only, no change is possible. The true system, the real system, is our present construction of systematic thought itself, rationality itself, and if a factory is torn down but the rationality which produced it is left standing, then that rationality will simply produce another factory. If a revolution destroys a systematic government, but the systematic patterns of thought that produced that government are left intact, then those patterns will repeat themselves in the succeeding government. There’s so much talk about the system. And so little understanding.”
–Robert M. Pirsig, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance (1974)