Every night in bed I am I bedazzled by a menagerie of darting shadows, undulating glows, and floating scintilla that I see in my semi-dark apt. Many of these are glanced in the corner of my eyes. I get that. The rods dominate the outer edges of my retina, which enables stronger perception of darks and lights. I try to convince myself that these are just hallucinations of a weary light-bombarded retina. But every now and then one darts out so unmistakeably that I am startled. And then I just laugh, knowing reality itself is a living presence of innumerable probable creatures all vying for their place in the reality landscape. Look at one of those shimmering gelatinous blobs that floats toward you long enough and they might actually snap into existence. At least for one brief moment. Such is the nature of our living teeming reality.
I get ocular migraines. Not very often, though. More so when I’m stressed. My peripheral vision gets blurry and there’s a dark perfectly straight line right in the middle. I always think I’m about to run into a wall or something and it startles me. No pain whatsoever and it only last for a few minutes. Seeing movement and shadows seem to be pretty common, but it could be a symptom of a something more serious. You should probably have an eye exam just in case.
(Dec 14, 2016 01:31 AM)Secular Sanity Wrote: I get ocular migraines. Not very often, though. More so when I’m stressed. My peripheral vision gets blurry and there’s a dark perfectly straight line right in the middle. I always think I’m about to run into a wall or something and it startles me. No pain whatsoever and it only last for a few minutes. Seeing movement and shadows seem to be pretty common, but it could be a symptom of a something more serious. You should probably have an eye exam just in case.
I have had multiple eye exams and an MRI of my brain. Nothing turned up. They said maybe I'm more sensitive to quirks of vision than most people. Could be. Who knows..They have also suggested silent migraines. Sometimes I see stars in the upper corner of my eyes while watching TV. I know those aren't real though..Their clarity belies they're objective thereness.
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(Dec 13, 2016 11:38 PM)Magical Realist Wrote: I try to convince myself that these are just hallucinations of a weary light-bombarded retina. But every now and then one darts out so unmistakeably that I am startled. And then I just laugh, knowing reality itself is a living presence of innumerable probable creatures all vying for their place in the reality landscape. Look at one of those shimmering gelatin blobs that floats toward you long enough and they might actually come to exist. Such is the nature of our living teeming reality.
It's amazing what interpretative preconceptions can discriminate in a sea of random patterns, and the textural character they can impose upon what they select from it. Whether a semi-dark room is the source or the preliminary stage before a dream commences.
Usually I don't remember anything of the more immediate transition from drowsiness to sleep and dreaming. But rarely I do retain the experience of those random splotches and patterns we "see" when the eyes are closed. As they suddenly start increasing in detail and become the initial scene of a vivid dream. Like witnessing disconnected, amorphous colors which originally didn't resemble a window and furniture in a room clearly assume those forms, and later I wonder how I didn't realize that's what they vaguely traced or filled the outlines of to begin with.
But I can also feel a strong sense before it happens that they're going to become ___. I don't know whether the idea is an impulsive cognitive demand from me or an interpretative preconception which issues up from a deeper, subconscious part of the brain. Once the dream fully kicks in it almost always turns into a lucid one, so that might seem to clinch it. But although I'm controlling that virtual reality after it goes lucid, in the preliminary stages it's like I'm suffering partial versions of the amnesia (regarding the waking world), paralysis of reason, and vulnerability to oneiric retcon that a conventional dream sports.
I've also had what's called a scintillating scotoma. Turns out it IS a visual migraine. I experienced no pain, and it seems to be the result of my antidepressants, which tend to raise my blood pressure.
(Dec 13, 2016 11:38 PM)Magical Realist Wrote: I try to convince myself that these are just hallucinations of a weary light-bombarded retina. But every now and then one darts out so unmistakeably that I am startled. And then I just laugh, knowing reality itself is a living presence of innumerable probable creatures all vying for their place in the reality landscape. Look at one of those shimmering gelatin blobs that floats toward you long enough and they might actually come to exist. Such is the nature of our living teeming reality.
It's amazing what interpretative preconceptions can discriminate in a sea of random patterns, and the textural character they can impose upon what they select from it. Whether a semi-dark room is the source or the preliminary stage before a dream commences.
Usually I don't remember anything of the more immediate transition from drowsiness to sleep and dreaming. But rarely I do retain the experience of those random splotches and patterns we "see" when the eyes are closed. As they suddenly start increasing in detail and become the initial scene of a vivid dream. Like witnessing disconnected, amorphous colors which originally didn't resemble a window and furniture in a room clearly assume those forms, and later I wonder how I didn't realize that's what they vaguely traced or filled the outlines of to begin with.
But I can also feel a strong sense before it happens that they're going to become ___. I don't know whether the idea is an impulsive cognitive demand from me or an interpretative preconception which issues up from a deeper, subconscious part of the brain. Once the dream fully kicks in it almost always turns into a lucid one, so that might seem to clinch it. But although I'm controlling that virtual reality after it goes lucid, in the preliminary stages it's like I'm suffering partial versions of the amnesia (regarding the waking world), paralysis of reason, and vulnerability to oneiric retcon that a conventional dream sports.
When I close my eyes I alternately see a red/black spotted membrane perpendicular to my plane of vision. After about 5 seconds it fades and I'm left in a darkness of moving blue glowing shapes, I raise my hands and I can see their bluish outlines as I move them around. Somehow that is possible. I don't know how. I even put my comforter over my face and they're still there. There must be some kineaesthetic or proprioceptive interface of the body with vision---a sort of projected hologram over ourselves based entirely on our sense of spatial extention.
(Dec 13, 2016 11:38 PM)Magical Realist Wrote: Every night in bed I am I bedazzled by a menagerie of darting shadows, undulating glows, and floating scintilla that I see in my semi-dark apt. Many of these are glanced in the corner of my eyes. I get that. The rods dominate the outer edges of my retina, which enables stronger perception of darks and lights. I try to convince myself that these are just hallucinations of a weary light-bombarded retina. But every now and then one darts out so unmistakeably that I am startled.
(Dec 13, 2016 11:38 PM)Magical Realist Wrote: Every night in bed I am I bedazzled by a menagerie of darting shadows, undulating glows, and floating scintilla that I see in my semi-dark apt. Many of these are glanced in the corner of my eyes. I get that. The rods dominate the outer edges of my retina, which enables stronger perception of darks and lights. I try to convince myself that these are just hallucinations of a weary light-bombarded retina. But every now and then one darts out so unmistakeably that I am startled.
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